I Wonder …

Why me, Lord?

It is a question often asked during times of turmoil, frustration, or confusion.

But this Thanksgiving season, as I reflect on the many blessings of the past year, this question presents itself with a slightly different meaning, imploring me to ask.


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Why me, Lord?

As a holy and perfect God, why do You welcome me, a sin-filled human, into Your presence? Why are You willing to reveal more of Yourself to me and draw near?

Why me, Lord?

Knowing even my thoughts—how ugly they often are—why do You still embrace me, when with a simple breath You could be rid of me forever?

Why me, Lord?

You created the very universe with the words, “Let there be. …” Why do You care enough about me to know even the number of hairs on my head?

Why me, Lord?

When I turn my back on You again and again, why do You remain by my side, ever faithful—waiting for me to acknowledge my need for You?

Why me, Lord?

As a just God, why do You not judge me guilty and sentence me to an eternity apart from You? What did I do to deserve Your mercy?

Why me, Lord?

Why are You so gracious to me? Why do You continue to bombard me with every good gift when I am ungrateful for what I already have? What have I done to deserve even one kindness from You?

I do wonder why me, Lord!

I wonder why I am so special to You, why You shower me with every imaginable blessing. I wonder why You chose me, adopting me as Your daughter, sacrificing Your very Son so I can become an heir to Your kingdom, an heir to eternal life.

I wonder … and am so thankful!

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This Thanksgiving season and forever, thank you, Father, for loving me!

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavens, in Christ; for He chose us in Him, before the foundation of the world, to be holy and blameless in His sight. In love He predestined us to be adopted through Jesus Christ for Himself, according to His favor and will, to the praise of His glorious grace that He favored us with in the Beloved” (Ephesians 1:3–6, HCSB).

Reflections: Being thankful should not be relegated to one day or a single season. What suggestions do you have for cultivating a grateful heart every day?

Wishing you a thanks-filled Thanksgiving! Join me as I link this post to the Thanksgiving Day Faith Barista Jam.


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Find hope in your real-life struggles. We'll chase it together! I am a wife; mom of 4 (including a young adult daughter with special needs); miscarriage mom of 5; author & follower of Jesus Christ. I write, edit, speak and enjoy everything outdoors.

8 comments on “I Wonder …
  1. Linda Thomas says:

    You’ve written a heart-wrenching prayer. I suspect all of us ask such questions from time to time but have not been able to put them into words. You did it, though, and I am blessed by reading them. Thank you for sharing them. They echo the cry of my heart.

    Have a blessed Thanksgiving, delighting in God’s enormous grace and blessings!


  2. Thank you for this reminder of where my focus should be. Needed it today!

  3. Caroline says:

    I echo this feeling: “Knowing even my thoughts—how ugly they often are—why do You still embrace me…” And yet He does. Truly amazing grace. And yes, I’m thankful, too.

    • juliesunne says:

      Absolutely, Caroline! There is no way to really comprehend God’s radical, never-ending grace in our finite-focused minds. Thankfully we don’t have to grasp it to receive it!

  4. Wow. Julie.
    You are turning your questions into an invitation to step into a conversation with God, encouraging us to draw near.

    Just so courageous because God’s love and grace is so real.

    Thank you for being an example of God’s grace to us!

    • juliesunne says:

      All is grace, Bonnie! We can see that when we are willing to draw closer to God as you are also doing. He is a big enough God to shoulder all of our questions and doubts.

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